2005-10-02

old friends

I mt up with an old friend from high school today. We used to be really close but drifted apart; I haven't seen her for about four years. I kind of lost contact with people, you know, with being a "world traveller" and all (that's how my mom puts it, at least)*. I was nervous because I wasn't sure she would like me anymore because we're done rather different things with our lives. I felt guilty not knowing how she was doing; like she could have died and no one would have ever thought to tell me. She has always had severe medical problems, but has finally had a successful kidney transplant about a year and a half ago. She plans on becoming a kindergarten teacher in the future. We're supposed to go to the Rocky Horror Picture Show together at the end of the month in Encinitas.

So it was kind of surreal. She is mostly the same, but then, I don't think people's basic personalities change all that much, they are just a different degree of who they have always been. I am the same too, I suppose, except now I can give on the spot lectures about obscure topics. And when I say that I want to date a guy who will take me out, it's to be assumed that I mean to the opera or a play. I'm beginning to wonder if that makes me odd, which is not something I've really ever considered before. If I were old, I would just say that I'm eccentric, but I'm not, so I'm not sure where that leaves me.

*By the way, I'm a pretty sad "world traveller" considering that I had to call my mom like five times because I got lost, in Hillcrest when I got there and then downtown on the way back. She told me that there was nothing to worry about because she had made sure that the car had a full tank of gas for just this reason before I left, so I could drive all night trying to get home if I wanted. I also had a panic attack before leaving because i realized that I would have to drive home in the dark. I did some research on-line (ok, really I just googled 'panic' and 'driving tips'), and realized that many of the people who share my driving affliction are nuts. So I'm trying to convince myself that it actually isn't that bad.

xanthium at 10:45 p.m.

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