2007-02-16

it's ok

Paddy did take me to the opera for v-day, which was fun. We saw La Traviata. I think I like it because it is the perfect excuse to dress up and wallow in melodrama. Which we did. I think he liked it too, at least enough to take me again sometime. He liked his present too. Thankfully, we celebrated the day before, which made it less anxiety provoking.

The last thing I need is more anxiety. I'm a bit on edge. I'm moving this weekend (which is a positive, but still stressful). I discovered that I am going to owe quite a lot of money to the tax-man because one of my jobs only took social security, not federal tax, from my paycheck. So despite making a paltry amount of money between temping and taking care of my brother for the state, I have to give the government money. I didn't get yet another job I interviewed for, which is depressing. I am very worried about my finances because I simply do not make enough money. It gets harder to tell myself that it will be alright when nothing seems to get better. I guess I should count the positives: 1. Paddy loves me. 2. My new apartment should be better, even if it is a tad smaller. 3. Work has been refreshingly steady. 4. I have a new "repayment" plan for my student loans that means I only pay the interest for the first three years, so that should help take some of the pressure off. So maybe he's right, and it will be alright.

xanthium at 3:32 p.m.

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